Xerox for the Glory of God or How My Wife’s Business Made Vivid the Cross

My wife is actually engaged in the photocopying business. She opened a little shop that offers the most affordable photocopy services in our area.

Yesterday morning, she requested me to buy 10 bundles of substance 20 paper.  Now paper is just paper and it’s light but if you get to carry 5,000 sheets with substance 20, that’s really a bit heavy.

She called me up first thing in the morning and then I had to go to the supplier without breakfast.  I also woke up with a slight headache that morning.

Now I have to carry these bundles one by one.

And more than that, I was catching my breath for every bundle that I carried to my vehicle.  As I counted the steps towards the supplier seen at the end of the alley, I counted a total of 84 steps. That means 84 steps to and fro with the latter ones with the heavy load on my shoulders.

And then as I did… It struck me.  Jesus carrying the cross.

As I carried each bundle towards my car, can you imagine how it was torturous having a headache as you are carrying a heavy load?  The headache throbs! Like each burdened heavy step is punctuated by the headache or vice-versa.  Each step = a throb, ouch! Step, throb, step, throb, ah!!! what a headache.  And here was I, partly hating this request from my wife and partly hating the headache.  I remembered our Lord…he had a headache too.  And it was even more painful because it was a piercing set of thorns.

I had to ask for our office assistant to carry them as I reached our shop later.

While carrying these bundles, I kinda felt a certain sense of humility.  Here was I, a Doctor of Medicine, carrying heavy loads of paper as a menial work man.  I mean, there’s nothing denigrating about being a man who do manual labor but it was definitely humbling.  If my colleagues would see me, they would probably shake their heads and then suggest that I should have hired someone who could carry those and help me.

But then, humbling as it may seem – a doctor acting like a manual laborer, the picture became more vivid.  What if you’re the Creator of all that exists, and here you are being born as a carpenter? Nothing wrong with being a carpenter but have you ever seen a carpenter’s house?

And then, can you recall the time of Jesus’ arrest? It was dawn. Have you ever asked if he took breakfast?  Of course he didn’t!  I felt the pangs of hunger as I was carrying those bundles.  Jesus was often called a glutton by His foes because He appreciated food.  How does it feel to carry heavy loads without a good breakfast meal?

I had no breakfast...and there was chowking on the side.

...and macdonald's in front..

And all of this I felt, as I was carrying all of these bundles.  I was complaining and then I realized, what have I to complain about?  Because when you think about it, great and greater loads have been carried by the Doctor of the Universe, not to mention with a more massive headache and hunger.

Why would I have to carry these load? Well, the answer is: profit.  These would earn income for my family.  Income that we don’t have yet, but expected to be acquired when all of these would turn up to be photocopied documents.

I had to ask for our office assistant to carry them as I reached our shop later.

And then I ask, why would Jesus have to carry all the load?  There is no profit he would earn, because he lacked nothing. There is practically no reason.

What was the motive for all of these?  My mouth is shut as I wonder and scamper for rationales.  There is no rational explanation.

Except perhaps, love.


The Prodigal Son’s Theme Song

I was simply browsing thru the net and then I saw the lyrics of a familiar song I heard before and it struck me.  Very profound.  It’s like this is the song of the prodigal son under the stink of the pig sty, remembering his father.


When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Moreso, when I was reminded of this excerpt from the Pulitzer (?) Prize-Winning Film, Young at Heart.  It reminded me, these are words we, all of us young and old, from the rocker to the conservative,  long to hear from Someone who has all the power to fix us, truly – down to the very core.

Fix Us Down to our Very Core.

Post Script: Incidentally, I was once tasked to preached regarding the Prodigal Son in Tagalog for our home church in Pampanga.

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Frustration, Eddie Villanueva, and Password Resets

Perhaps unexpectedly, the most viewed page on this blog is my article on Bro. Eddie Villanueva.  I have received so many comments, both encouraging and discouraging, sharp and dull, fair and unfair.  It was written 6 years ago, but then it still bites. Perhaps because it’s false or maybe it’s so true that’s why it elicits pain, because as they say, the truth hurts.

Some have NOT even read the position paper and yet reacted.  I wish people who read the article though react with the ISSUES presented rather than resort to “i-will-vote-for-him-no-matter-what-you-say” stance.  I respect that too! But please react to the issues more than anything else. For example, how do you deal with the lie that “Jesus Declares Victory in JDV” from Eddie Villanueva? Is this a lie or a truth? React on this ISSUE please.

One weird thing though.  Perhaps it is not an accident that a number of times now, this blog site was attempted for multiple times to be reset by having someone pose as me and requesting for its password to be reset, and therefore put this blog to rest.

Well, it isn’t happening yet.  I still believe it is the Christian’s duty to protect Bro. Eddie Villanueva against harm by NOT voting for him and to inform all Christians about this, AS I SEE IT.  He has already hurt himself (albeit unknowingly) AGAIN by committing so much compromises lately.

Free Classic Christian Audio Books to Download this March 2010

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I really suggest you make the above download this month of March 2010.  Hurry for you may miss this FREE OFFER.

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When I’m in a long drive, I make it a point to listen to audio books.  It makes those awake moments worthwhile.  Driving is tiring but filling the time it takes to do it with classic worthy books make it worthwhile.  I suggest you download these.

The first of these is this outstanding classic called The Cost of Discipleship. In my humble opinion, no preacher of the Word should miss this.

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Here are some blurbs from Amazon that would make you realize the importance of this book.

Editorial Reviews Review

“When Christ calls a man, he bids him come and die.” With these words, in The Cost of Discipleship, Dietrich Bonhoeffer gave powerful voice to the millions of Christians who believe personal sacrifice is an essential component of faith. Bonhoeffer, a German Lutheran pastor and theologian, was an exemplar of sacrificial faith: he opposed the Nazis from the first and was eventually imprisoned in Buchenwald and hung by the Gestapo in 1945. The Cost of Discipleship, first published in German in 1937, was Bonhoeffer’s answer to the questions, “What did Jesus mean to say to us? What is his will for us to-day?” Bonhoeffer’s answers are rooted in Lutheran grace and derived from Christian scripture (almost a third of the book consists of an extended meditation on the Sermon on the Mount). The book builds to a stunning conclusion: its closing chapter, “The Image of Christ,” describes the believer’s spiritual life as participation in Christ’s incarnation, with a rare and epigrammatic confidence: “Through fellowship and communion with the incarnate Lord,” Bonhoeffer writes, “we recover our true humanity, and at the same time we are delivered from that individualism which is the consequence of sin, and retrieve our solidarity with the whole human race.” —Michael Joseph Gross

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One of the most important theologians of the twentieth century illuminates the relationship between ourselves and the teachings of Jesus

What can the call to discipleship, the adherence to the word of Jesus, mean today to the businessman, the soldier, the laborer, or the aristocrat? What did Jesus mean to say to us? What is his will for us today? Drawing on the Sermon on the Mount, Dietrich Bonhoeffer answers these timeless questions by providing a seminal reading of the dichotomy between “cheap grace” and “costly grace.” “Cheap grace,” Bonhoeffer wrote, “is the grace we bestow on ourselves…grace without discipleship….Costly grace is the gospel which must be sought again and again, the girl which must be asked for, the door at which a man must know….It is costly because it costs a man his life, and it is grace because it gives a man the only true life.”

The Cost of Discipleship is a compelling statement of the demands of sacrifice and ethical consistency from a man whose life and thought were exemplary articulations of a new type of leadership inspired by the Gospel, and imbued with the spirit of Christian humanism and a creative sense of civic duty.

The next is one of  my favorite books on the Cross.  In our Church in Pampanga (CBC) we usually exposit one of the 50 reasons every Lord’s Supper.  It has tremendously blessed our church in so doing.  May the grace of the Cross be learned and cherished by all.

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Happy Downloading and then Happy Listening.